There are times that I feel like Ellie has been here forever and I cant remember my life before her.
Times when I think back and realise how far she has come.
Then there are times when I feel like it was only yesterday that Ellie came into our lives.... and I can still feel those raw emotions of fear and joy.
Fear of what was to come?
Fear of what Ellie's life would be like?
Fear of what our life as a family would be like and how our life would change?
Fear of the unknown?
Joy at the arrival of our precious little girl.
Joy at our family of 2 becoming a family of 3.
Joy at this little thing that was going to amaze me..!!!
These are days like August 22. Ellie's birthday. This year she turned 5.
5..!!! Where did that come from??? What I have a 5 year old.
Over the last 5 years, there are still occasions where I go back to those fears I had when Ellie was born. There will always be some sort of fear of the unknown with Ellie. That just comes with having a child who has a disability.
However that is only short lived. When I look at our girl, and she reminds me that she is a strong, determined, resilient and funny girl, that has so much love to give.
It amazes me that we are here at 5, planning school next year for Ellie.
It makes me beam with pride how well she has fitted into kinder, and melts my hear that she has made her own kinder friends.
It makes me SMILE and helps subsides those fears...!!
Happy Birthday to my beautiful Ellie. You bring us so much joy...!!!